Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Journal Entry #4 Ground Zero

What did you feel when you first saw newspaper or magazine images or found zero? How were your reactions similar to or different from Berne's?
When I was younger and saw magazines about it, I knew nothing about it. I was to young to understand and it did not affect me alot, because I knew no one about it. What grabbed my attention were the images taken the day of the attack. Alot of perspective view points showed different points of views of how it happened. The resulting images showed so many emotions and dangerous situations people where put into. For example, the images showed people dying from injuries and hanging from the buildings that could lead to their deaths. People were also trapped underneath the rubber contaminating the air with dust. The fascinated me more, than to give me a feeling of sadness. A lot of certain things do not make me feel sad, only movies. The movie about the World Trade Center did affect me, because it gave me a more realistic picture of other peoples lives, that were effect by this.
Berne's reaction to this made e relate to him. He seemed like to be not so affected by this and to feel any sympathy toward others, As if he was clueless of how this meant to everyone else.  Personally he was more entertained and wanted to see other peoples point of views. He listened in to other people, for example, when the father was talking to his son about it the father seemed more hurt by this. Showed how he was here from the beginning of constructing it to the destruction of it now. My interest was in how it all happened and the results, and I can understand why people are hurt by this. Since no one that I know was hurt by this or was in danger by this attack, I feel no sadness about talking about this topic.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Journal Entry #3 Shooting an Elephant

Do you think Orwell is a coward? Do you think he is a racist? Explain your feelings.
I do not think that Orwell is a coward, more like a person that makes bad decision. He did not stay loyal to his personal beliefs, instead he followed what everyone else expected of him.
He is not racist, he is merely a person that knows factors that differ each individual person. When it came to him being in the village everyone did not come with welcome hands. They merely had no respect for him, because he is different from everyone else. He does not come from the same background as them. When it came to him saving them, he was a hero to some and a foe to others. Those that saw no danger in the elephant where people that maybe saw that he was harmless and caused no pain to them. As for those that did get harmed from the elephant, they were people that were blinded by grief and anger. In a way people have become a big factor that influenced Orwell. Making his decision was hard, because in eather result there would be people that would hate him more than they already do for being different.

Journal Entry #2 Thirty-Eight Who Saw Murder Didn't Call the Police

In a similar situation, would you have called the police? Would you have gone outside to help? What factors do you think might have influenced your decision?
If I were to witness a crime my first reaction would be surprise and angry. I would first see what seems to be the situation and yell out the window, "I have a gun and I will shoot". Then, if the criminal ran off id run out the door to help the victim inside and help him/her. Before doing so I would call the police and wait until they arrived. What influenced my decision is my past. In the past something terrible happened to my little sister and to this day I blame myself. I wasn't there to help her, no one was, but I wish I was I would of protected her. Danger can happen to any one and caused from the unexpected. I picture helpless people as my little sister and rush to help with anything I can. I wouldn't want anyone to go through the same thing as she did. No one should be feeling a painful experience through out their life.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Journal Entry #1 Only Daughter

In what sense do the number and gender(s) of your siblings "explaining everything" about who you are today.
     I only have one sister and her name is Stephanie Espinosa. She is only a year younger than me, and we are different from each other. Since we are both girls and only our mother raised us on her own, we have a good amount of restrictions. My mother had to do everything for us such as: buy us clothes, buy food, buy school supplies and uniforms, pay the rent on her own, and do it all with minimum wage paycheck. We struggled alot more than other kids, and had to live with what we could afford. Seeing her struggle and still staying strong in our eyes made me change how I see life. She had to protect us alot from others, because she warned us to be cautious and smart in making decision on our own.
     Letting us know how life can be hard and observing from a perspective that the income of ones wealth is a big effect on how your life will be. When I was younger I admit in having tantrums just because I never got everything I wanted. It wasn't because she didn't want to buy us a simple barbie, it was for we could not always afford it. A point in life when I started to grow more and understand, I saw that money is not given out for free. The nights that she wasn't there, where the nights we missed her the most. No mother to sleep next to us and protect us, and no mother to spend the afternoons out of school with.
     I am who I am, because I was raised in an environment where we had to work for what we needed and struggle most of the times during hardship. I value what I receive and what i can get. People call me to friendly and caring. Only because I'm the kind of person that will be there for them and care and do anything I can possibly do to help.  Also, because of my childhood being different girls looked down on me and sometimes took advantage of me. I grew strong and let no one put me down, as well as to work hard in school to follow what I want to be in my future. If we work hard now, our future will be not as hard as she had to work with raising two daughters on her own. We will raise our own family different without struggle, is what my mother strongly believes in.